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Crisis averted, I think.
by blank at 11:37 PM on March 14, 2004
In MG’s last post about ending Bad Sam, I commented about my little quarter-life crisis at the beginning of the month where I almost quit my job and moved away. Well, here’s the story:
I have a decent job and live in a nice college town. For some reason I don’t feel happy where I am. I feel like I live only to get up every morning and go to work. That’s not where I want to be. With the suggestion from friends in St. Louis, I put some feelers out for a new job there. Problem is I kind of made a commitment to stay at my current job for another year. Going back on that would be bad. I apply at three places and get three interviews set up. I get a second interview on one and then a job offer. Not a real special job, in fact it would pay a little less, but fuck it, I need out. I’m gonna’ go back on my word and ditch this one-horse town. My problems will be solved. I’ll be closer to friends and find more opportunity in the city. I hit the web and find several great places to rent. I write my resignation letter and accept the new position on a Friday. I’m feeling good. Sunday night I’m not felling so good about it. Monday morning I’m felling worse. With letter in hand, I go to resign. At the last second I put the letter in my pocket and have a talk with my boss. She thinks I’m cool, doesn’t want me to leave and offers to help me out. Even though her solution to all my problems is to join a church, I appreciate her help. I decide I haven’t explored all the possibilities of this place and I’m going to stick it out a bit longer. I call the place with the job offer and decline it. Burning bridges is bad, but moving to St. Louis probably won’t solve any of my problems. It would just distract me with new ones. Now I just need to figure out what my problems are.
There’s the story. I’d write a longer one, but I can’t sit still long enough to type it. I’m bouncing off the walls because my date today went so well. Date number two is definitely going to happen. Weee.
comments (13)
PS: I have two bosses. The boss I refer to here is the big boss I like, not the airhead boss I bitch about.
by MrBlank at March 15, 2004 1:06 AM
Ah, indecision. It paralyzes us all. But you seem pretty sure about date #2. Hope it goes well.
by anna at March 15, 2004 7:41 AM
Sounds like both options are okay... as long as you like the college town. Do you?
by Linz at March 15, 2004 9:09 AM
I too am itching to get away from where I'm at, but unlike the year looming ahead of you, I only commited to work here until July 1. I get to do whatever I want after that, and I'm thinking that moving to a different country will make me happy for a little while.
I too had a good date this weekend and think that a date #2 will happen. She even called about 20 minutes after we parted ways to make sure I got home safely. How cute is that?
by Leaffin at March 15, 2004 10:22 AM
Nice Leaffin! That is adorable.
= ) Also forgot to congratulate you on a good date Mr. B.
I want more details on both dates, please.
by Linz at March 15, 2004 10:36 AM
A new job and moving MAY change your attitutude on life. It probably wont though. Your sticking out where you are, and have a year more there. THough I can be certain chruch is not the answer to your problems, you've got a year now in relative safety in which to figure out what exactly your problem is before you move off somewhere else where if you moved now you'd have to face your problem and figure out a new job / city at the same time. This year will go by slowly, but I think it can be very good for you.
by mg at March 15, 2004 10:51 AM
I do like this town, but at this point in my life it doesn't quite fit. It is a great place if I was either a) a college student, b) settling with a family or c) retiring. Right now I'm right after (a) and feel like I need a few more experiences before I get to (b).
by MrBlank at March 15, 2004 12:56 PM
Oh, Blank, I feel you on this one. I'd do anything to get away from 'here' and 'now'. Of course, on my part it is probably just the hormones acting up again.
by Yen at March 17, 2004 5:14 AM
as a noted itchy-footed lad, i can sympathize with the impulse to keep moving. it's what led me all the way out here to san francisco. i've always been into preventing myself from getting too comfortable. it's a fear of stasis and eventual death i think. but also, you do need to stir the pot once in a while. mg's advice might be sound, and a quiet year of reflection might be just what you need. hopefully the itch to move and disturb your routines will still be strong in a year and you listen to it.
i guess all i'm saying don't be afraid to change your life if lingering unhappiness, and staleness persists. you don't want to look back and think about the things you didn't do. instead, it seems nicer to think back to all the wild chances you took. sometimes you've got to find great things, because they rarely come looking for you...
ps, when did mg get so sage-like? he's like a goddamm fortune cookie in his old age.
by lajo at March 17, 2004 12:42 PM
More sage-like wisdom: that isn't wander-lust you feel Lajo, it's athlete's foot.
by mg at March 17, 2004 1:40 PM
Heh-heh. At least he doesn't have crotch rot. Actually I've always been curious about Lajo. I wonder why he rides the bike, doesn't watch TV, is so good-looking but doesn't mention gals (or gay men) hitting on him, is in the Bay Area etc. Do tell.
by anna at March 17, 2004 7:33 PM
funny you should mention that...
by lajo at March 18, 2004 12:25 AM
blank....
so what happened? with the girl?
tell tell!
by lajo at March 24, 2004 12:21 PM