This is in followup to prior post. The fact that all my friends are deceased isn't the only reason I'm such a lonesome hermit loser. The other reason is that due to the eventful nature of my youth, including a seven night string of boozy one night stands and a mescaline party that left a bar awash in the puke of hundreds, I kind of feel like it's all been done. To do anything more would be like watching a Seinfeld rerun, fun but but ultimately a boring waste of time and space.
My loneliness problem is exacerbated by my pestering my wife into taking a job so that we might continue living indoors. She did, but the hours conflict with mine so we hardly ever see each other. And when we do, one or the other is so tired that it sucks.
I have felt like a hermit for so long it's second nature. Whenever someone suggests going somewhere, my minds starts churning out reasons not to. Go to a concert? I'd probably have some drinks and get arrested on the way home. And in my state that means major jail time. Better to stay home and watch the horseracing channel.
I am reminded of Marlon Brando in The Wild Ones. He's a member of a biker game infesting a rural town. A townie girl asks him about going places and he deadpans, "Going someplace is for squares. We never go anyplace. We just go." Genius.
A few years ago I got sucked into this oxymoron. I sent the check but my stuff never arrived. Periodically I try to find the site to collect my $18.99 back, but it seems to have disappeared. I did go to a domain-buying site and noted that someone has bought the name. So maybe it is coming back. Long live Club Recluse.
Heh, that's cool. The free t-shirt probably has a neat motif with the words, "I'm a recluse." Underscoring it. But nobody would ever get to read it. Probably has the e-mail address for the recluse site on the back too, great advertising. }XD
by Ex Crimson Guard NCO at March 4, 2006 12:53 PM
Or else a recluse spider, my favorite animal.
by anna at March 6, 2006 7:50 AM
My last post on tradinganddrugs.blogspot.com seems similar to what you feel in your post...
...we should meet someday in this life... perhaps next time your in NYC for something 'banal'.
by LOCKHEED at March 6, 2006 4:26 PM
I got a married and had a kid to get over my lonliness. Thats seemed to work pretty well.
by mg at March 8, 2006 11:51 PM
I've got that too but she's always working when I'm home and World of Warcraft has taken over my son's life. He no longer goes to school.
by anna at March 9, 2006 5:44 PM
I said over a year ago that you should make sure your son heads in the direction of the fairer sex, and to avoid video games. Damn you Vader, you've screwed up Luke. Might be a different son, heh. But if it ain't, I waaarned you, yes, I did.
by Ex Crimson Guard NCO at March 10, 2006 9:28 PM