Welcome back to your cell... the inmates have missed you

by snaggle at 11:43 PM on September 03, 2001

Snaggle life update : School has begun and you know when you’re up late on Tuesday, the second day of school, that it’s going to be a rough semester.

Graphic Design has already started kicking my ass. I suppose I knew exactly what to expect, but still... it’s different when you’re actually doing it. My archnemesis, Sleepiness, is once again rearing his ugly head and preventing me from being the stellar student I know I am deep down. It’s odd starting a program when you’re a senior and everyone else around you are sophomores. It’s not quite as bad as being in freshmen-level classes, but there’s still a good amount of naïvité that can be annoying — and at the same time, it can be sweet. It’s refreshing to see youthful dreams and aspirations. It’s scary when you’re already seeing those around you and those you knew begin to put their dreams on a shelf along with their photo albums and memories. I’d like to think that everyone ends up where they’re supposed to... yet it keeps me up at night. What happens to those like me who, instead of having one driving dream keeping you pushing towards one goal, you have multiple little goals and more a sense of where you want to be than any real idea of what you want to do with your life. By now, most people my age around me have decided on their life plans, have been pursuing a degree towards it, and are 9 months away from entering the real world. And here I sit, starting over. My dreams have always been vaguer than most.

The fact that I’m steeped in a university atmosphere most definitely comes out right now. I have very little exposure to people my age who aren’t in school and I can’t fathom not being in class right now. Though school is bent on kicking my ass every five minutes, I can’t imagine September coming around without grumbling about classes and classwork. There’s something comforting about the rigidity of a university schedule that keeps me going.

Sorry I haven’t been posting much. I know I owe you a few. I promise... sometime soon I’ll post regularly.