so i'm trying to post more often here. in the moments i'm delusional and apparently wanting to live the dangerous life, i kid myself that it's safe here, that the reasons i don't post certain things elsewhere won't find me here. but between browser histories i forget to clear, the unhidden links on my own site(s), and good ol' google, nothing is sacred. i'm an open damn book. i have things i'd like to write in that book, and i cannot.
i have interesting, possibly exciting things happening, at least in my imagination and possibly even in my life, but let's remember the vividness of the imagination in question and realize the actual possibilites are rather farfetched. or they're not, depending on how many beers i've had at the time when i'm considering them.
my frustrated life has me drinking too much, staying up too late, and being so tired that i collapse into a nap at the end of the day which keeps me up too late again. foam at the mouth, rinse, repeat. i must say that this lather i've worked myself into is quite stimulating, and has precipitated much thinking about change. i sit and consider all manner of different approaches to life, from homicide to exercise to actually quitting smoking. notice i say ‘sit’, because i have done nothing else as i babble about the latter two and categorically deny actually thinking about the first, claiming that mentioning is is fiction designed to enhance the danger of posting here at my so-called safe place, this ‘blog on the side’ affair thingy i have going with bad sam, without actually incurring any peril.
to sum this up, it's way too late, i'm filled with the energy of all the of fascinating things i have to write about, but i can't tell you, or else i'd have to kill you.
so, mg, this is a good compromise (no caps but no &s)? i feel more comfy writing this way.
by kd at February 12, 2002 5:23 AM
"my frustrated life has me drinking too much, staying up too late, and being so tired that i collapse into a nap at the end of the day which keeps me up too late again. foam at the mouth, rinse, repeat."
Hey! If you're going to be living my life, at least do it better than I already am!!
by snaggle at February 12, 2002 2:27 PM
oh, Snaggle, i do look to you as a shining example. i think people that are still in school are better at this sort of thing no matter what... it's much more awkward to live like this when you're old like me. [sigh]
by kd at February 12, 2002 3:09 PM
You should try to avoid sleeping in the middle of the day. Force yourself to stay up, then go to bed at a normal time. If you have trouble sleeping, get some good-quality lavender oil at the health food store, put a few drops in a warm bath, and on your pillowcase.
by Charles at February 12, 2002 10:34 PM
unfortunately, Charles, when the naps hit, they hit hard -- however i did not have one yesterday & yes, i was up too late anyway.
at least i slept straight through the night & had dreamse of getting my tongue pierced! that was fun.
by kd at February 13, 2002 11:43 AM